C Eldon Taylor

Hellfires of Grief C Eldon Taylor

Hellfires of Grief: Love Poems is a collection of 222 poems written after the disembodiment of my beloved Carol Susan on October 31, 2011. I use the word disembodiment rather than the word death or death to the body since my beloved's beautiful radiant spirit left her physical body to return to the spirit realm. The words in my journals were inadequate to express my experiences of loss, grief, and dispair. I converted the raw words of grief in my journals into poems to express in words the language of my tears, broken heart, and the hellfires of grief. Tear's Wordspoemsmy giref concentratedwhat my tears say when I listenmy tears insisted I translate them into wordsinspiration from my soulsoul's bloodbeen said tears are healingif tears are healingperhaps tear's wordsmay be healing tooIt is my hope, wish, and intent sharing the tears of grief translated into words brings others a measure of comfort and healing energy to all who read them. Hellfires of Griefhellfires of griefinvisible to the naked eyeblack fire created by lossnot like ordinary firegreater the losshotter the firelonger the burningdisembodiment of my soulmatecreates hottest fire of allburning on and onburning away impuritiesregrets remorse longing fearsuntil all that remains is lovehellfires of griefcontinue to burn and burnnow and thenI see a touch of gold with silveraround the edgesmostly it is blackinvisible to the naked eyewith more impurities as the fuelhellfires of grief burn on and ontill all that remains is loveI wonder what that will look likeThe 222 poems describe the raw landscape of grief experienced during the first eighteen months after the disembodiment of my beloved and the beginning of healing. Poems include images of alchemy, subtle energy, Taoism, I Ching, golden dreams, love beyond, soul, and subtle spirit realm. Written as part of the struggle towards personal healing and published to share healing energy with others experiencing their own versions of the hellfires of grief.