David M Hazen

Out of Control David M Hazen

I learned to shut down my whirling thoughts, sit down and listen. I just wanted to be comfortable with myself, accept myself just the way I am, and I didn't know that's what I wanted, or lacked - self-acceptance - but that's what I got. I thought .... I was a very weak and stupid person, a misfit, a miscreant. I thought I was alone in this world, I thought I was living in hell. I had to accept all of that.... Then I discovered I wasn't talking to myself, I heard you telling me my own story, reflecting it back to me, and I was stunned. I felt connected, and the empty void within me became a solid thing with a path and a purpose. I am not who I thought I was. I am no longer a solitary, struggling, panicking idiot. I have the strength of all of You, I have the courage of all of You, I have the Love of all of You. My history still haunts me like a ghost sometimes, but now I see it only faintly at a distance, and it does not frighten me. I have gone from self-acceptance to self-discovery to self-abandonment. I am We. Love always wins, that is the L. A. W.